Liam Payne reveals secret struggles during One Direction

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Liam Payne

"I shouldn’t have been on stage” 

Despite selling millions of records, travelling the world, performing at stadiums and making more money than anyone could image, Liam Payne has revealed that his life in One Direction wasn’t all fun and games. 

Liam Payne has opened up about a secret battle with mental health while he was in One Direction. During the height of One Direction’s success, Liam has revealed that he would struggle to get up onstage with his bandmates and there were some nights that he shouldn’t have even been allowed on stage. 

He told The Sun

“I shouldn’t have been able to do as many shows as we did if I’m honest about it if I’m brutally honest about it."

The ‘Strip That Down’ singer disclosed that he often felt like going on stage would feel like he was putting on a costume. 

“Going out and putting that happy smile on my face and singing the songs, honestly sometimes it was like putting on one of those costumes, going out there and, underneath the costume, people don’t really see what’s going on.” 

The 24-year-old admits that his issues came to a head in October 2015 when his bandmates were forced to cancel a show in Belfast. At the time it was said that Liam had ‘taken ill’ but the truth is Payne had just split with his girlfriend, Sophia Smith and he was struggling to cope with it. 

"I let it get to me that day. I wasn’t in a good place. And unfortunately I was going through a rough time and I let it get to me a little bit too much. I just don’t think we stopped and celebrated enough how great things were and I think that’s what got on top of us in the end. It was like, ‘Oh you’ve just won three EMAs, but get on the plane and go to the next place."

At the end of 2015, Liam, Niall, Louis and Harry made the unpopular decision to go on hiatus. In regards to the break, Liam acknowledged that he knows fans are not happy about it, it’s what One Direction needed. 

“Even though I know fans are not made about it... we needed it. We needed a little bit of time away from each other. We need a realisation point to find the love for it again, rather than it just becoming a job. I’m a totally different person now to how I used to be about it.” 

Since One Direction went on break Liam has had his first child Bear, with girlfriend Cheryl Cole. 

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Written By Gemma Prendergast

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